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Avatar 4.0 by HUNKxTofu
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New avatar. I wasn't paying attention and the aspect ratio on FanFiction.net for avatars changed from square to tall, 3:4 or in display 150x200, so my current/previous one looked wrong. I've been focused on writing lately, so it took me a while to get around to making this even after I noticed, though it didn't take me long to make this.

I made the image myself, but didn't create the font or the background, I'm very sad to say. I can't draw.

The background is a small portion of a piece of "Fallout 3" concept art I'm almost sure is by Adam Adamowicz (see Flickr: www.flickr.com/photos/47857688…). I don't want to take the time right now to find the original posted version of the image I used—sorry—though I may later. Specifically, I found this through the crappy Fallout wiki (fallout.wikia.com). I hoped to source to the good Fallout wiki (fallout.gamepedia.com) but I had trouble navigating concept art there. It's "CapitalWastelandCA02" (link: fallout.wikia.com/wiki/File:Ca…) on the crap wiki. I scaled their large, nice image down to 1724x2000 for this.

This is my original/full resolution, 600x800 pixels. I thought I'd just try what they recommend at FanFiction.net in the Image Manager section and if I don't like how it looks I can re-make it bigger or something. As I said above, they don't display nearly this large on that site.

See my profile, the one I made this for, at www.fanfiction.net/u/3361133/ ( . . . where I'm Grits 'n' Gravy, and was previously HUNKxTofu, which should be written HUNK/Tofu as in HUNK slash Tofu. Videogame reference.)

Font/typeface: Caslon Antique, size 90, smooth, no other effects. I looked at several other fonts then narrowed them down to a few, and this feels best, at least for the moment. I came close to the "Dwarf Fortress" font, Narkism, Gill Sans, Adobe Jenson Pro and Gulim.

Program: Adobe Photoshop CS5 Extended (v12.0) for Mac.

WTF? I didn't disable comments. I don't know what I'm doing on this site.
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I can't think of a better name-title. I've been into Game of Thrones lately—I've started watching the TV show. Before it was the books (and Roy Dotrice audiobooks) and occasional YouTube clips.



Letting my internet feelings out: I'm a bad person. I'm sorry, everybody. I'll probably make a note like this on my too-long bio on FanFiction.net too.


I made friends with someone, who is great and whom I hope I didn't disappoint or upset at all (but I'm sure I did), and then I talked too much, as best I can tell. Maybe it's just because "Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble" is so bad—I don't know; we haven't talked since I posted it, which I guess was in March. (I don't want to look that up.) I kept trying to talk to her and now I think she blocked me (see below). I feel it's important to note she never said "hey stop that" or "you're talking too much!" or "stop talking to me" or anything else helpful or instructive, or anything at all; The last message I got from her—email notification (because I can't access the PM thing on FanFiction.net; see below) dated 19 March—said she was on holiday and didn't have wifi and told me not to worry. I'm not complaining or trying to blame anything on her, just trying to represent what happened truthfully, if my phrasing makes sense/isn't too messy. I don't keep a journal so I only have my memory to go by, with the occasional email backup as backing. That's part of the reason I'm doing this; I'll probably think of her weeks from now and wonder WTF?!? again, as I have many times since we last sort of actively talked, and memory deteriorates quickly and isn't as good as people think it is.


Now I sort of don't know what's true anymore. I didn't get a "you've been blocked, fucker" message; I just now went to PM her and got a red you-fail-at-life-&-socializing-&-probably-emotional-intelligence-while-we're-at-it message saying I couldn't PM her. This'll be a publicly-accessible (?) journal entry but I don't mean it as an airing of grievances or anything, I'm just letting out my feelings about an internet thing on the internet. I can't say to people I know or talk to in real life, "ah I fucked up I'm a bad friend!" and I don't know how to explain fanfiction sites stuff to people. I guess I could just say "on Facebook." (One of the times I looked her up hoping to see a post on some site saying something like "this dumb guy's talking too much Ima block him!" I found her Facebook. So that would be an oversimplification. I would've liked to friend her, or however that's verbed.) I just wish I'd been a good friend and not talked too much and I'm mad at myself and disappointed. I think every couple days I tried messaging her again to ask what was up and stuff like that—I can't even access the past PMs between us to see what I said, inbox or outbox, dammit. That's a dammit at myself. It was clearly stupid to keep messaging her. I don't know what I should've done, but I'm pretty sure it was not that. I don't know what it came off like, probably stupid and desperate or needy, or something. That's not where I was coming from, I just wanted to keep talking to her, I guess? Eventually I must've forgot what I was trying to do. I'm an idiot. One of my faults is I'm not always aware of what things I do or say will look like to other people. On the internet it's probably worse. Anyway maybe what I should've done was not say anything at all for a while. I don't know. I'm not good at this. I never said the right thing. I'll assume everything I said is all wrong; I feel like I did everything wrong I possibly could've because she didn't/hasn't/probably won't ever actually tell me what I did wrong. Sorry for being repetitive, I'm just not sure how to put it. Maybe I was too relaxed. I don't know. I screwed up. Maybe it's best I can't look back on what I said and linger on it or obsess or something. I don't know. Whatever I did I don't want to do it again to her or anyone else.

If anyone sees this (you can if you want, but I don't think anybody'll read it) feel free to comment, I guess, in general? Or if you know her or something. An ex of hers contacted me back when she was still talking with me; I'll contact her again to say "I done fucked up! now she's ignoring me. whoops I suck at life" and ask if they've talked since back then to try to find out where I went wrong. I'll try to keep that message short.

  • Watching: Fridge Logic: Silent Hill Movies (Part 2)
I finally posted/published "Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble" a month or two ago (? I don't want to check) but it's bad and I really fucked up. That's my first draft of it. I'm working on a second not-terrible one, but it's kind of on hold for the moment. "GSS" is up on FFn and AO3 and the Fallout kink meme. I'll replace the versions on AO3 and FFn, and post it here eventually, but I don't think I should re-post it on the kink meme. "GSS" is a Fallout fanfiction. I'm trying to set it in the whole Fallout series-franchise world but it's technically set mostly in Fallout: New Vegas. That time period.

I'm about to post a separate journal entry kind of to myself.

I'll come back here and add links sometime.
  • Watching: The Real Silent Hill Experience
Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble cover by HUNKxTofu
Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble cover

The full title is “Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble; or, Fun with Weapons.” Links below. It’s long, though, about 51,000 words. You probably won’t want to read the whole thing.

Source links below. I kind of made this. I combined three things for it in Photoshop, basically. The background is a photograph of the Hippocratic Corpus from Wikipedia (unscaled), and from Fallout 3/Fallout: New Vegas the Powder Gangers’ PIP-Boy reputation icon and a radscorpion’s Gamebryo model, plus a plus sign.

The Powder Ganger rep icon is only 241x241 pixels so the image’s full resolution is what I have here, a mere 300x450. I don’t like to work that low-rez, but I couldn’t think of another way to make this work. I love Vault Boy, and PIP-Boy icons in general, and wanted to use the Powder Gangers’ for this rather than like an ending slide of theirs. I don’t know how to vector stuff like that (yet. YET!), so I just made the rest of the work fit that. I shrunk the radscorpion render thing.

Font: Gothic 821 Condensed Bold Text (“Cn BT”), aka the Fallout font, size 60, drop shadow, anti-aliased, smooth. I don’t remember where to find the font online.

Program: Adobe Photoshop CS5 Extended, version 12, x64
Color space: sRGB IEC61966-2.1
Square pixels.

I’ll post the story to AO3 and here when I get around to it, hopefully soon. I just started posting it on the kink meme and FanFiction.net. Yesterday, I think.

The story:
- FFn: www.fanfiction.net/s/11111278/…
- Kink meme (original): Prompt: falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co… My story (because of the way I nested it, I have to link to the too-long A/N. Sorry. Just skip that.): falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…

Sources:
- Background: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Vat…
- Powder Gangers’ rep: fallout.gamepedia.com/File:Pow…
- Radscorpion: fallout.gamepedia.com/File:Rad…

Let me know if any of the links don’t work. Fallout Gamepedia image-file-page links are weird.

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I just made accounts at AO3 and Literotica. I'm a little more excited about AO3. (Side-note: context?: I'm watching "Red Sonja" on El Rey right now.)

I'm bad about journaling mostly because I don't journal but also because then I have to trouble myself to dig up links and stuff.

I haven't published anything at Archive of Our Own (which I'm really impressed with so far) or Literotica but I'll get round to it eventually. Links:

archiveofourown.org/users/HUNK…
www.literotica.com/stories/mem…

I talk too much. Sorry. I like talking to people.

Oh, while I'm at it—I'll recap here, but I already wrote this out on my FFn profile (note that there I'm Grits 'n' Gravy: www.fanfiction.net/~gritsngrav…)—I'm closer to publishing this longer story, like a novella ~ novelita, I've been working on for a while called "Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble; or, Fun with Weapons." I just finished posting three things I cut from it, "snippets," on the livejournal Fallout kink meme, which is where I'll post "GSS" first. I'll link to the three snippets individually below.

Snippet 1 (the shortest): falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…
Snippet 2: falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…
Snippet 3: Strength Method: falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…

All three are (Fallout fangirl technical terms) m!LW/Cass, of course in the "Fallout: New Vegas" universe. I wish I could draw.

I hope I didn't misspell anything.

I don't really have a good outlet to explain stuff on FanFiction.net or AO3. I should use LiveJournal. Maybe I'll repost there, and change all the words, or something. I have an account there too. Anyway, because I want to attempt to say why somewhere—though I kinda do on the kink meme—I'm trying to cheat to the kind of fantasy stuff that everybody seems to want on the kink meme and usually FanFiction.net too, so Titus happens to be awfully good at sex (which to be fair there's also reason and explanation for) and has a big dick and stuff. The main character just has to have shit like that. Everybody else I can be realistic about, so Cass is not also super-awesome at sex. I'm sorry to have made the male really good and the female not really good. I don't mean anything by that, and I hope it doesn't look that way.

Speaking of which, dammit, I mean to post all the stuff I've written (five things—not much . . . maybe I should say "the paltry sum of stuff I've written") here as well. Maybe I'll do AO3 then here then Literotica or something. I intend to make accounts at Wattpad and AdultFanFiction.org too.

My two things up on FFn have got a couple of favorites and follows, for which I'm grateful and by which I'm honored and flattered and all that good stuff.
I just made accounts at AO3 and Literotica. I'm a little more excited about AO3. (Side-note: context?: I'm watching "Red Sonja" on El Rey right now.)

I'm bad about journaling mostly because I don't journal but also because then I have to trouble myself to dig up links and stuff.

I haven't published anything at Archive of Our Own (which I'm really impressed with so far) or Literotica but I'll get round to it eventually. Links:

archiveofourown.org/users/HUNK…
www.literotica.com/stories/mem…

I talk too much. Sorry. I like talking to people.

Oh, while I'm at it—I'll recap here, but I already wrote this out on my FFn profile (note that there I'm Grits 'n' Gravy: www.fanfiction.net/~gritsngrav…)—I'm closer to publishing this longer story, like a novella ~ novelita, I've been working on for a while called "Goodsprings Scorpion Scramble; or, Fun with Weapons." I just finished posting three things I cut from it, "snippets," on the livejournal Fallout kink meme, which is where I'll post "GSS" first. I'll link to the three snippets individually below.

Snippet 1 (the shortest): falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…
Snippet 2: falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…
Snippet 3: Strength Method: falloutkinkmeme.livejournal.co…

All three are (Fallout fangirl technical terms) m!LW/Cass, of course in the "Fallout: New Vegas" universe. I wish I could draw.

I hope I didn't misspell anything.

I don't really have a good outlet to explain stuff on FanFiction.net or AO3. I should use LiveJournal. Maybe I'll repost there, and change all the words, or something. I have an account there too. Anyway, because I want to attempt to say why somewhere—though I kinda do on the kink meme—I'm trying to cheat to the kind of fantasy stuff that everybody seems to want on the kink meme and usually FanFiction.net too, so Titus happens to be awfully good at sex (which to be fair there's also reason and explanation for) and has a big dick and stuff. The main character just has to have shit like that. Everybody else I can be realistic about, so Cass is not also super-awesome at sex. I'm sorry to have made the male really good and the female not really good. I don't mean anything by that, and I hope it doesn't look that way.

Speaking of which, dammit, I mean to post all the stuff I've written (five things—not much . . . maybe I should say "the paltry sum of stuff I've written") here as well. Maybe I'll do AO3 then here then Literotica or something. I intend to make accounts at Wattpad and AdultFanFiction.org too.

My two things up on FFn have got a couple of favorites and follows, for which I'm grateful and by which I'm honored and flattered and all that good stuff.

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I desperately wish I could draw, but I can't; I'm absolute rubbish at it. Once I start posting fanfic "literature" to FanFiction.net I'll be dual- or maybe it's called simul-posting it here as well.

I'm sorry if it's weird that I like women and sort of erotica and boobs and stuff. I can't help it. Sometimes I favorite things which I find just amazingly beautiful. I'm sorry to say this to people interested more or only in that first bit, but I also favorite smut, things that titillate. So . . . yeah. Thanks for the visit! :)

I'll list stuff that I like in a meaningful way sometime when I know this site better; For the time being: I love Saeko from "Highschool of the Dead" (I've seen the anime but I like the manga better, and "Parasite Eve" and Aya Brea, I love the "Dead Space" games and sometimes Isaac Clarke and Nicole Brennan but haven't played #3 yet, I love some but not all of "Final Fantasy" (the series/franchise) and for whatever reason often Lightning in particular (Maybe it's the pink hair and that she's a warrior?), I love breasts (Sorry.) and often legs (Also sorry; but I can't help it, and neither can you!); I'm not -way- into anime but I love, generally, anime and manga too.

Lately I've been kind of into the Fallout series (especially Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas), and The Elder Scrolls series (most especially "V: Skyrim").

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